Sometimes There Are No Words….

…to describe your feelings. That’s kinda how I feel right now. So many thoughts swirling around in my head. Especially around this holiday season. I found myself moved to tears so many times these past couple weeks, and it all began the moment I found out about the shooting in Newton. The shock, the awe…the complete inability to fathom what happened. During the days following, I was so shook up that as I walked around town and saw everyone going on as nothing happened, I wondered how people could move on so easily? Maybe it’s because I’m an elementary school teacher and the scenes seem so real in my mind, or maybe because I’m a mom who has kids the same age as those shot…I don’t know, I can’t say for sure, but regardless, this tragedy has put a whole new spin on things in my life. It has made me think more about who I am, what I am doing and where I am going. It’s made me think more about my kids…am I really giving them my all? Because they could be gone tomorrow. And thanks to this realization, this holiday season held a whole new meaning for me.

This post really started out as my holiday recap, but as I sat down to write, I realized I couldn’t move on without acknowledging what made this holiday season seem more real to me. Newtown definitely did that. It made me think. And I will be forever changed because of it. It has sincerely shook me to the core. Have you seen this?

These beautiful prints were jointly created by friends of this blog and can be purchased HERE . The proceeds go directly to Newton {Hurry, it looks like you only have one day left to purchase!}. I bought nearly every print and will be hanging them in the hallway that leads to the kids rooms. I don’t want to ever forget how blessed I am to have my little ones, and I hope and pray that these help me remember…to love my kids with all my heart and to always pray for those who lost their babies way too soon.

With these thoughts in mind, I gave Christmas a hard look this year. I also started thinking more about the new year and I actually sat down and started thinking about making a New Years Resolution this year. Normally I don’t make any commitments of any kind on New Years, mainly because I am HORRIBLE at keeping them {ha}, but this year, I feel propelled to do one. Maybe it’s the Newtown situation or maybe it’s simply the Lord guiding me, but either way…

In 2013 I am going to strive to live simpler.

To live simpler in my life looks like getting my finances in better shape and living to give instead of receiving. It means to say no more often and yes to things that really matter. It means not complicating life with extra “to dos”. It means embracing my family to the fullest and not wish for something different. It means contentment.

“…for I have learned, whatsoever state I am in, to be content.” Philippians 4:11

All of this will be starting this coming week. I am cleaning out my studio to do inventory, so it is the perfect time to re-evaluate things I have. I am pouring over our finances for tax papers, so it’s the perfect time to cut out the fat. And the kids are off of school, so it’s the perfect time to enjoy them to fullest.

Friends, I mean this with all my heart, I pray for you. I really, really do. Sometimes {like today} when I write a blog post, I pray for you while I’m writing. I want you to know that I love you and you are in my thoughts and prayers. So I have a request for you….will you pray for the Miraflor family? Pray that while we continue doing what God has asked us to do, that we do it simply. I’m praying the same for you.

Love you friends…so tell me, do you have a New Year’s Resolution?

xoxo

7 thoughts on “Sometimes There Are No Words….

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    Sherri says:

    I have never left a comment on a blog and very rarely read any (I follow you on Facebook). Your words have moved me to comment and think. I too was moved by the events that took place, found myself crying at odd times. I was thinking of creating a resolution this year, it will be to live a whole life, to be healthy inside and out. I realize it is not what we look like that matters but that is difficult to remember surrounded by slim beauties :). But I want to be an example of a total healthy person to my daughter, giving and accepting. Giving gifts that are not concrete. Thank you for thoughtful words!

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    Ashley says:

    I love you and your family and have felt the very same way. I just had a my little baby 4 months before and have cried off and on since Newtown. This year getting debt free is #1 on our list in order to give back to those that need it most. We do not. Love you Amy. Thank you for the blog….hugs! Ashley

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    Michelle H says:

    I too don’t normally leave comments on a blog either but felt compelled to do so after reading yours. I have also been moved by the events in Newtown. I have two little girls and my oldest is the same age as the precious children who lost their lives. I have felt so saddened by the events and yet I have no connection to any of the victims. I have never felt so moved or terrible about something such as this in a long time. It has also made me re-evaluate my life and if I am doing everything I can to love my children, support them and serve others in the world. This year, my resolution is to give more of myself whether thru my time, my work, or my financial means. I want to infuse more kindness in the world. I want to be a role model for my girls so that when they look at me, they see a woman who supports those in need and lives life in support of God’s work. I want to renew my Faith. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. There are so many of us who feel the same way as you do. God Bless you and your family. You will definitely be in my prayers!

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    Bonny Smelser says:

    Amy, thank you for speaking directly from your heart! I
    no longer have little ones as you do but I have all my Grand & GreatLoves to influence with the life I live.
    I have made resolutions before but in the past few weeks
    I realize this new year is different. Simpler life yes,
    making a list of those things I need and letting go of those I don’t! Making a list of family, friends and needs and praying daily for these! The Miraflor Family will definitely be on my list! We are so blessed but this year I want to focus on giving wherever and whenever the need arrives! I love you Amy Miraflor and God for you and your words to others!

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    Crystal says:

    It means to say no more often and yes to things that really matter. It means not complicating life with extra “to dos”. It means embracing my family to the fullest and not wish for something different. It means contentment.

    “…for I have learned, whatsoever state I am in, to be content.” Philippians 4:11

    OK. I’m in. You’re right….and I’m in. Full steam ahead 2013….I’m in.

    Thank you Amy.

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    Marilyn Kok says:

    Prayers shared for your family. Thanks for sharing. May the Lord bless your family with his grace & comfort in 2013. Sisters in Christ. :-).

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    Jami M. =) says:

    Thank you for sharing this, Sis. Amy – LOVED what you said!!

    The Lord showed me a whole new “light” on simplicity and holiness at the first of the year. Philippians 4:11 is one of my most favorite Scriptures, and though there are days, (several, as a matter of fact), that I tend to veer away from being “content”, He manages to draw me back to that that was revealed to me almost a year ago. I’m ALWAYS so grateful when He does because I never want to lose sight of Him and His will in my life. My desire/goal, not just for 2013, but NOW, is to be more consecrated and dedicated to the Lord and to create good/positive habits for myself and my family.

    The tragedy from Newtown left a somberness in me this Christmas, but it, also, made me realize, that much more, how blessed I am to be a mother and that that alone is one of the highest callings the Lord has placed on me. The Lord could’ve chose anyone else be my kids’ mom, but He chose me – what a privilege!! I have a 13 year old son and a 4 year old daughter. He is a teenage boy – ’nuff said. She is my shadow, and if I’ve learned nothing else from being her mom, I’ve learned, (and am still learning), that I need to be mindful of everything I say and do. It’s my responsibility for my kids to know, love, and serve the Lord, and if I want them to do so with everything in them, I must do the same. Whether we realize it or not, we are our kids first examples of who/how to be/not to be – a calling that should never be taken lightly.

    Ok, have rambled LONG enough. Thanks again for the blog! It’s awesome!!

    Prayers of blessings for today and the new year to come!

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