My Christmas Tree is Dying

So today, as I walked past my Christmas tree, I reached over and felt the needles. I do this periodically because I love the feel of Christmas trees, and I love the way it leaves your hands smelling like a Winter Wonderland! ;) But instead of that feeling of excitement bubbling inside of me, I felt dread.

My tree is dying. I took a picture of it from where I”m sitting here at my desk area. I’m sure you can tell right away its dying {I know, you can’t but humor me}

Yup, it is. it is all dry and brittle. Awesome, right? My husband has been up at a youth camp in the mountains with very little reception and I have hardly talked to him since Friday morning-ish. But you better believe I sent him an instant text reading, “Call me as soon as possible”, which is code for EMERGENCY. I then immediately got on facebook and asked you all what I should do. You are awesome, by the way, thank you friends. {and if your tree is dying, there is a wealth of info there, ha}

When Brandon called, I very stressfully told him that our tree was dying and, as per many of your suggestions, we needed to either give it a fresh cut, or take it back to the lot and exchange it. I was met with silence. Not a good sign. And then, “So I’m confused, why does this matter so much? The tree has been cut down from it’s root system. The tree is dead.”

Hmmmm. Ok, well, why does this matter? Whelp, I just simply can’t feel comfortable with paying a hefty portion of money for a tree that was supposed to last two more weeks at least and looks like it will only last two days. No that’s not ok with me. I must have a nice Christmas tree that isn’t a fire hazard on Christmas day. That’s what we paid the money for anyway, right?

My sweet husband finally realized that this wasn’t a joking matter to me, that it really meant something to my crazy little mind and said, “Sweetheart, whatever you need me to do, when I get home I’ll do it.” Ah. That’s why I married the guy. ha.

ANYWAY, the jury’s still out on what we ARE going to do about the tree, but it seemed to be the first step in a stressful day direction. Have you ever had those? For some reason today I felt completely overwhelmed with things that either A. Needed to be done B. Things I’ve done, but I knew I didn’t do them right and C. Anything else that doesn’t fit in those two categories. Seriously, panic mode started for me today.

I’m sure you all are very calm cool and collected, but I have to remind myself daily that I am not in control…God is. I also have to remind myself that yes, I’ve been a loser in the organization department {which is why I hire people to be organized for me, ha} and things that need to be done or things that needed to be done but I didn’t do it the right way REALLY, REALLY overwhelm me. In fact, I think the “needed to be done and I didn’t do them right” category is the one that gets me the most. Because I know I could have done better. A lot better. {For example, why in the world can’t I just put my clothes away when I take them off?? Instead I pile them up on the chair in my room and have to take an entire hour putting them all away once a week. Dear Lord help me. ha} And I hate, hate, HATE that feeling. Some big, important life to do items just done all wrong. Not because I don’t know how to do them, but because I don’t have the time, or it scares me to do it right, or I didn’t see the right way the first time and so I end up doing it wrong….

AHHHHHHHH…someone shoot me now before my thought process verifies me as completely and 100% insane. ugh.

And I know, because all my friends tell me, that there are simply not enough hours in the day. NOT ENOUGH. Tonight am supposed to doing laundry and finishing my Christmas cards, but good grief, I’m tired and desperately need to sleep. So those aren’t happening. And my inbox, which is so very overwhelming, will sit untouched tonight {AGAIN}. This was AFTER I cleaned out all the junk mail. :(

Sorry everyone if I owe you an email, but being by myself this weekend and having house guests have put me behind. Tomorrow I will respond. THANK YOU for your patience!

Oh and, then to just make me feel even more awesome, I get a random text message…TWICE…from some strange number with this info:

WHAT????? Dear 517-599-8536, I do not A. have an Android phone and B. game. So I have no idea why you decided to text me, but I’d appreciate it if you’d pass my little number up next time. Thank you very much.

Soooooo…the moral of all this mumbo jumbo: Life is overwhelming. Yes it is. We all feel overwhelmed or panicked at one time or another. But GOD IS POWERFUL. And mighty, as we talked about today in church. And full of peace.

“For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.” Isaiah 9:6

It was a perfect message today for someone who was completely stressed out over her dying tree, her inbox and her prank text messages. ha. Thank you FATHER…for being ALL THAT I NEED WHEN I NEED IT…despite my inconsistencies and my failures. Despite all at that I was supposed to do and didn’t and despite the fact that I’m a bonafide crazy woman. ha. Thank you Lord, you are awesome. I am so very thankful I know YOU. Amen.

Good night friends, hope you enjoyed the crazy side of me tonight. ha xoxo

3 thoughts on “My Christmas Tree is Dying

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    Amber says:

    Oh, good…you ARE normal!!

    Amy, I think we (women) ALL have days or things that are important to us that others (the men in our lives) just don’t get. HAHA! And that is not a bad thing. Imagine if you BOTH went into panic mode over the same things? Your house would be crazy town. :) So, your worry is normal and justified.

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    Marilyn says:

    So glad I’m not alone in not being organized to do tasks at hand. Why do the tasks seem so over whelming? Oh well, thankful that each morning brings a new day. Have a good Monday
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    Justin says:

    I’ve been having a lot if threatening texts from random people saying to not call or text their number, so I put my phone number in Google and your page came up first. I am phone number 5175998536. I assure you, that it is not me sending messages or calling any random number. Someone has spoofed their number with mine and I don’t know how to stop it. I tried a factory reset and I am still getting these random texts. I guess I will have to change my number to get it to stop. I apologize for the inconvenience but it is not me. I have an Android phone and i received a text like the one you received and I downloaded the game, and thats when it started so I bet it has something to do with that site.

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