How Are You…

….REALLY?
You know, I find that phrase {How are you?} very interesting. This past week I have been asked that by several friends and before I responded, I hesitated. I mean, come on, do you REALLY want to know how I am? Well, I’ll tell you. I’m:
Tired
Stressed
Frustrated
Insecure
Annoyed
Tired {oops did I say that one already???}
I’m sure you’ve been there too…but you know, you never say. I mean who really wants to hear all that, and to be honest, {here’s my skepticism stepping in} I have a hard time believing anyone really cares?
It’s funny I feel this way, as when I ask it, I DO care. There are very few times I ask someone flippantly how they are. Usually I just say, “I hope all is well” if I really don’t want to know all the juice in their life. ha. But if I ask, “How are you?”, I usually really mean it. 
So why do I second guess other people asking me? And why do I feel I can’t really say how I am?
I’m sure, if you are a woman, you completely understand the VERY WIDE range of emotions that we feel on any given moment of our lives. Almost anything can affect our moods, even the moon. {if you don’t believe me, think about how you were feeling on Wednesday night when there was a full moon…right.} In fact, I don’t always feel the above listed emotions. Most of the time I feel:
Happy
Blessed
Thrilled
Giggle-ly
Chosen
Elated
HAPPY
And on those days, I can tell you that with no fear or regret. Strange, huh?
Anyway, this is all really rambling compared to what I really want to talk about in this post, but it’s definitely a prelude. Because you see, I have two jobs {I know we talk about this a lot}. First I am a mom, and second I am a…. hmmm?? Not really sure. ha. Anyway, I work. 
And both jobs require A LOT of attention and time. And I think, since I seemed to start my second job right after I started my first for the second time, I have been living in a VERY chaotic state for quite some time. But I’m beginning to feel a little more balanced. I feel like my head is starting to think a bit more clearly. I don’t feel so completely overwhelmed and I do feel like I have control of my life not the other way around. That is a GOOD feeling.
So back to the beginning of this post. The past week I have been feeling a bit down, thank you very much. A couple things happened that really made me frustrated, annoyed, insecure about myself and really just TIRED. Sheesh. So instead of dwelling on it, I have been focusing on two things:
1. Faith.  
I love the NIV’s version of Hebrews 11:1, “Now faith is the confidence of what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”
2. Organizing!
 Ha! I know crazy. But my life is so amazingly packed that I am looking for ways to streamline, simplify, etc. Which brings me to the point of this post.
I work out of my house. You should it on a daily basis. Today my little couch in my living room, where I do my daily devotionals, looked like this:
What I love about this picture is you see my slipper there in the corner, which apparently got moved from where I keep them thanks to Evy, and the kids little laptop over by the window…probably put there Evy as well as she likes to pretend she is on the computer while I am. {Side note: I do wonder if being on this computer almost 24/7 like I am is going to give me some sort of cancer?? ha. I seriously would love to do a little research project on THAT one!! :)}
Anyway, I have talked about it for well over a year, maybe even longer, but I am going to take some drastic measures to make this little work area that I practically live in more organized and palpable for me to live in on a daily basis. Want to hear my thoughts? Well, thank you! 
So my dining room table and sideboard. I work off them. I LOVE them. They were my Nannies. I forget the name of them, but they are very well made and are worth a lot of money. But they are a medium color wood. Right. I’m not really a medium color wood kinda girl. You can read more about my thoughts on them from this post.
I LOVE WHITE, as most of you know, and I have gone back and forth about painting that table and sideboard white for years. See the last week or so I have started thinking more about my work environment. You know, how can I make myself a little more at peace in a very chaotic world? And the first thing that came to my mind was this table. Crazy I know. But seriously, when I step into the world of Rachel Ashwell Shabby Chic, I FEEL AT PEACE! 
 All images from shabbychic.com

So I think I just might take the plunge. I think I’m finally going to do it. Paint the table and side table. Just have to ask Dad first. Oh boy.
But what I AM going to paint is my computer cabinet. I don’t really have a picture of it for you, but is a very dark wood, probably mahogany. I got it because our room, amazingly enough, has dark wood accents. Its the only place in the house that does. So the cabinet matches the room very well. But I no longer work out of my room. I work out of my living room. And I have the perfect place for the cabinet, where I could house all my paperwork, printer etc. 
The only dilemma is that it’s right where I put the Christmas tree every year. :( But no worries, I told Brandon it couldn’t be that hard to move the cabinet once a year, right?? ha!! 
Anyway, I want it to look like the cabinet below {minus the glass windows}, in fact I want the whole room to look like this:
image shabbychic.com again
And before I move on, let’s talk about the sofas in my living room. They are in desperate need of new slipcovers, so I’m going to see if I can get my mom in law to help me make some, as well as get new stuffed down cushions for them…. 
OK…
Lastly, my Evy girl. She’s kinda driving me nutso as she is INTO EVERYTHING. Jake never opened one cabinet. I can prove it as we never even put locks on the cabinet. Evy…well, you can’t leave one thing on the counter as she will find her way to it and you don’t want to know what she will do with it. So I am determined to make her room more play friendly. You know, someplace I can lock her in and she can’t get out… {oops, did I say that?}
So for her 2nd birthday, my parents are going to go in with us and get her the pink pottery barn kitchen. Who DOESN’T LOVE Pottery Barn Kids? Seriously awesome place!
all images from potterybarnkids.com
So in order to fit that in her room, we need to move things around a bit. Also we need to make the room a bit more kid friendly. I’m doing this by emptying out her changing table/cabinet and putting baskets in there for her to pull out and put all her toys in. Also the hope chest from my Grandma will house all her dolls and lastly, I’m going to find a bookcase like this one {or might as well find one that needs to be painted while I’m painting all this other stuff, haha} to put all her books.
I’m also going to make her one of these to hang behind her door for her gazillion hair bows and clips
But I want it to look like this one that is on the door. Same colors would be awesome
And someday, when its time for a bed, she’ll get something like this frame. I LOVE this frame! But her room will be all shabby chic, I have to say I’m a bit sick of the bright bedding! oh boy.

 There you have it. I feel so much better about my life just thinking about all this organizing! ha. 
So I guess I should close with this: if you ask me how I am…
I am a little stressed, tired, and a bit annoyed, but I have hope that everything in the future is going to work out and I have faith in God that He has my life worked out completely. So with that said…
Let the organizing begin!

Oh PS…my book keeper Jen? Well, she’s pretty much amazing. She organized my entire filing system, which was a CHORE. Thank you Jen! I step forward! xoxo

5 thoughts on “How Are You…

  1. 1
    Kelley says:

    Go forth and conquer!

  2. 2
    Jesy says:

    i looooove the little kitchen set, and totally off subject i almost named preslie annabelle :)

  3. 3
    Jenni says:

    you pretty much descrbed me last week. i paid my sister in law a LOT of money to come into my house when i was at work and clean and do laundry (she was here from 6:45 in the am to 4:30)! lifted my spirits for sure.

    i have begun to slowly reorganize too and redo rooms…but i am trying to find pieces to refinish and items to do myself, so i know this process is going to be a little slower! i am okay with that!

    the craft room is getting a newly painted turquoise dresser (should be finished tonight) to hold the new silhouette machine and laptop and has 9 drawers and the tvs are going to get hung on the walls monday! can't wait. slow and steady wins the race.

    hopefully you start to feel like you again as you start to get life a little more organized!

    big hugs!

  4. 4
    Bonny says:

    Sweet Amy, I have been breathing prayers for you as I am amazed at all you have on your plate! God has a plan and it will all unfold….unfortunately not as quickly as we would like at times…
    I love Shabby Chic and your ideas are great and will definely help you- give you a more spacious feeling!
    You are strong in your faith and daily walk with God!
    Just had to comment — I admire you sooo much!
    xoxo
    Bonny

  5. 5
    Kassie says:

    Love your ideas! I think the table and sideboard would be great white!

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