Oh friends, after tragedies like Oklahoma, your heart just hurts, you know. Especially when kids are involved. I know the entire tornado damage is horrible, but I just can’t stop thinking about how terrifying it must have been for those parents to converge upon those two schools and frantically look for their children. Just absolutely heartbreaking!
In light of this situation, I wanted to share something that happened to me yesterday, in hopes it would encourage some of you who feel like God has completely forgotten you. I’m not sure if I’m the only one, but I feel that way sometimes. Like God can’t see me. Or maybe He’s ignoring me. Have you felt that way?
I’ve mentioned before that the last couple months have been rather stressful for me and my family. Just seems like there is a lot going on, and to be honest, it can keep me up at night sometimes. Monday morning around 3 AM I woke up with a giant to do list twirling through my mind. I hate these nights….you want to go back to sleep so badly, but the panic of things needed to be tackled is a list mile high and it makes your heart pound. Not sure if I’m the only person who has these episodes? Anyway, at 3 AM I started feeling the overwhelming dread of “I can’t do it all” or “I really screwed this up, I didn’t do everything I needed to do” or “Oh great, I need to pay for this, where am I going to get the money?!”. Whenever I have nights like this, I usually lay there praying, or read my Bible, hoping that eventually I fall back asleep. Begging God to give me peace. Usually I am up until the kids wake up, which can make such a long day.
But on Monday morning, I feel asleep pretty quickly. I remember looking at the clock around 4:30 AM and nodding off soon after that. Thankfully, I slept pretty good regardless of the little break in my sleep. Then late Monday afternoon, I received this text from a good friend:
“Hi Amy! I just wanted to see how you were doing. I had a dream about you last night and in my dream you were feeling as if you couldn’t handle the pressures of life mentally; you were on overload. I just wanted to remind you that the Lord is with you always; and it’s ok if we can’t be Wonder Woman 24/7. Prayed for you! Love you!”
Whoa! Instant tears! I’ve had so many of these nights lately that I was beginning to think that God wasn’t watching me, didn’t notice my stress, or much less even care. But HE DOES. He cared enough to give my friend a dream about me, the same time I was stressing out, and impress her to pray for me.
I think it’s pretty clear: He sees you when you’re sleeping!
He really does know exactly where you are and what you are going through and He hears every cry that you make. He loves you enough to impress others to pray for you, and He most definitely doesn’t let you walk through life alone, even if you think He is.
I just want to encourage someone out there…you may be looking at your life and thinking, “Hello God, are you there?!?!”. You may be wondering if He’s forgotten you, or ignoring you. But just remember that He’s watching you, looking out for you, and cares for you. He hasn’t forgotten you. And is up at all hours of the night, just for you.
Praying for all involved with the tornado in Oklahoma. And praying for you all who read this. Love you! xoxo