Confessions of a Very Behind Blogger

So its been a while since I blogged. I have a problem that is very depressing. It’s called the Let’s-Cram-As-Many-Things-As-We-Can-In-Our-Day problem. Anyone heard of that one? Well, its a real problem and I have it. I think I can accomplish a million and one things in the day and then get frustrated with myself when I can’t. Maybe you’ve been there. 
Anyway, I’m one of those bloggers who blogs for fun, not for business {more on that in a second} so most of my posts are driven by thoughts that pop up into my mind throughout the day and I just feel I need to talk about them {to your frustration I am sure} and I’ve had a million of them the last couple weeks, but since I am so behind, I thought I would just highlight them today. 
I am calling them “Confessions”….and yes, I am aware I “confess” a lot on this blog. No, its not part of my religion or faith or anything {I’m a Penecostal Christian in case you were wondering}, but it is something that I seem to do well, so I just keep on running with it. ha. Hopefully you can endure a bunch of them today. Each one of them really are a blog in themselves…so don’t read too much into them since they will be short, honest and sweet.  Exciting, right?!? Ha.
Confession #1: I have not weighed myself in over two and a half months since I packed my scale away over in Stockton. I guess to some people that might not be a big deal, but to me, the person who weighed herself everyday for the last 20 years, it’s a HUGE deal. And you know what, I’m actually just fine with it!  Apparently, despite the fact that I have eaten literally everything in site the last couple months, I’m doing just fine. On Sunday morning I wore my favorite black size 2-but-should-be-a-size-6 Banana Republic skirt and it actually fit. So thank God I guess all is well despite the little hiccup in my daily routine! ;) ha. oh boy.
Confession #2: I miss Stockton more than most people think I should. I know its crazy to some of you, but I miss so much about Stockton. That place had such a HUGE impact on my life, and even though its not technically my hometown, I will always consider Stockton a home to me…my Jerusalem so to speak. Stockton is always written on my heart and will always be a place I love. I also miss seeing people I know everywhere, all the time. Love that. 
Confession #3: I am very frustrated with my Evy’s Tree blog. I said earlier that I blog for fun, not for business. For some time I have felt beyond frustrated with my business blog as I feel it lacks the “personal” side of life. I get so tired to talking about hoodies all the time on that blog. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this family blog. I mean its my little place where I can be myself. But the other…ugh. Also, its really hard to find time to manage two blogs. I have a ton of DARLING WWWW pictures to use but just can’t find time to do a WWWW. Oh, and my Evy’s Tree blog is powered by wordpress, which I just can’t seem to get along with. Any helpful suggestions from you wordpress users out there? Anyway, I have decided in the new year to change things up a little with the business blog and the family blog…so stay tuned. I hope you all like the changes and thank you to those of you who follow the Evy’s Tree blog for your patience.
Confession #4: I don’t care about clothes. Yikes. Did I just say that outloud? I did! So sad to say since I own a clothing line. But its true. Once upon a time I shopped all the time. But now….ugh. I just don’t care. I can’t remember the last time I went shopping for myself. I just buy out of necessity and live in what I have…which are all nice things anyway. That’s why I feel it is so important to purchase nice clothes. I’d rather have one very nice, expensive, quality article of clothing than a million cheap ones that will break in no time. Never fails, you’ll get more out of the the better quality item. And besides…its not about the clothes anyway, its about how you carry yourself. If you are confident in yourself, you could be wearing a paper bag and it would look cool. ha.  
Confession #5: I am an introvert. Whenever I say this to people, their answer is ALWAYS: “You hide it well”. Yes, I know. I learned in college that I am something called a Choleric/Melancholy.  A choleric is an extrovert personality, but only if driven by goals and necessity. My husband, who is a Sanguine, is energized by social events, however, social events exhaust me. Not because I don’t enjoy being with people, because I do. I LOVE people. They are what make me enjoy living. BUT…I always leave social situations tired and ready for a little recharging. I spend everything I have focusing on people who I love. But I recharge by spending some time by myself. My husband on the other hand….don’t ever leave him alone for long periods of time. He will wither away. Put him in a group of people and he will perk up immediately. That’s why I love him! :)
Confession #6: I don’t travel often with my evangelist husband. I know that this is frowned upon by many, but I do have a good reason. When Brandon first told me of his impression to step out as an evangelist, I asked the Lord what He would have me do. I immediately felt VERY strong to stay as close to home as possible, for many reasons. First of all, and most important, I am a mom who has a school age child. I could homeschool, but even though I am a teacher, at this time I don’t feel called to do that with Jake. Also, I have a job, one that I feel God has handed me. In order for us to make it and for my husband to remain in full time ministry, I have to work. So because of my kids and because of my {God given} job, I stay home. When I am able to travel with my husband I can and I do…. and it’s always wonderful, but I do try to be there for my kids as much as possible. I hope all of you who have my husband speak at your church or church function understand and support what I feel God has called me to do.
Confession #7: I am not a conference girl. There, I said it. Oh boy. I can feel the tomatoes being pulled from the cases and ready to be thrown. Please don’t hate me, but I am NOT a conference person. I’m sure Confession #’s 5 and 6 have a lot to do with why I’m not, especially #6 since I don’t like to leave my kids for a long period of time. Also, confession #4 plays a big role in this as well. I rarely dress up and conferences stress me out since I know I will need to change out of my Tom’s and rescue my heels from the back of the closet. ha. Also, the massive amounts of people swarming all over the place makes me hyperventalate. Seriously. I start freaking out and look for the closest exit. I can never make it far though, since my husband is ALWAYS right in the middle of the mix, so I am forced to stand by his side and smile. Whenever I see someone I know, I will cling to you like crazy. So friends beware when you see me at a conference. You might have to deal with me all week. ha. Seriously. Am I the only person who feels this way?!? Lastly, conferences are expensive…very expensive! Especially if you live all the way on the west coast like we do. It cost a ton to get to all these conferences. Unfortuantely, we just don’t have the money to send both of us. Maybe someday! :)
Confession #8: My blog scares me.  I know, I know. Crazy. But it does. Why? Well, I have met so many beautiful and wonderful people through this blog…but I have never actually “met” you. I just know you online. Brandon and I have a joke that when he walks into a room or church meeting, he never has to say anything about himself since I already have. It’s a bit un nerving….and not that its anybody’s fault but mine; I’ve put it out there, obviously. And I really don’t mind- but this putting yourself out there comes with a fear…a fear that you see us only through this blog and not how we really are….that you perceive us as something that we’re not. And we are nothing but ultra human. Also, this blog is very one sided. It allows you to peer into our lives but doesn’t allow the same for us. That’s why I always tell people, if you read this blog PLEASE introduce yourselves! You get to see everything about my life… my home, my business, my kids, but I don’t get to see anything about you, so please tell me. That’s why I always tell people, comment on my blog so I can see who you are, its so much more fun that way!
Confession #9: I don’t worry about money anymore. This is a HUGE confession for me to make, but I realized this past week it’s true. It’s actually a huge step for me in general and one I am very proud of. I come from a long line of “money watchers” if I can call them…us Wollmers are very good at keep a close eye on our money and if there isn’t enough, we stress, and worry, and strategize a way to get some. When I first married Brandon, he tried to encourage me to trust the Lord more about our finances. I can honestly say that it wasn’t until we made the ministry shift…and I felt God force me to trust Him…that I actually did. Now, I just know He will take care of us. I KNOW it. Why? Because He has. I can look back and honestly say we have never gone without. EVER. Also, when we stepped out He became our employer. He knows we aren’t extravagant, don’t ever buy anything unless its a necessity, and try to make wise and frugal purchases always. I know He will make sure our salary is ample. And you know what? We haven’t gone one month without our needs met. Not one. I want to encourage someone out there who is a money worrier like me. Let it go. Our Father owns a cattle on a thousand hills…HE WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU. I promise. Do your part by making sure you aren’t living extravagantely and then trust Him. I know you won’t be disappointed.
Confession #10: I am so excited about Christmas this year! This is our first Christmas in our new home and I am so thrilled about making new memories. I’ve got the house decorated {if I have time I’ll snap some pictures}, I’ve got the kids presents all ready…. AND my younger brother Brad is here for the entire week! We have been having so much fun cuddling up on the couch and watching some of our favorite Christmas movies. PLUS…Christmas day falls on a Sunday and our church is having a very short 45 minute service where we are going to sing Christmas carols and thank God for all His blessings. My heart is full!

Anyway…THANK YOU for reading! ha. Any confessions you want to make?!?! :)
xoxo

11 thoughts on “Confessions of a Very Behind Blogger

  1. 1
    Lindsay Rudell says:

    Hi Amy,
    I confess that long before I purchased my first Evy's Tree hoodie, I blog-stalked you here. I feel that though we were never really close in high school (did we even attend RVC at the same time?) that you are a very real and dear friend of mine. Our daily lives couldn't be more opposite, but I look at your blog, tweets, facebook posts, etc., as a daily encouragement in my own. Thank you for taking the time to blog – it means so much to so many of us!

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    Jenni says:

    I LOVE your blog Amy and am so happy to have "met" you through it!

    I look forward to your posts, however random and sporadic they may be!

    Hope you and your family have the happiest of holidays this year!

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    Heather :: AFD Jewelry :: says:

    This is such a beautiful and honest post, Amy! I'm so glad I met you through it, and was lucky enough to meet you for reals! I have a "confessions" post scheduled for tomorrow, but yours is so much better (and honest!)

    I always admire your honesty.

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    Kelley says:

    I am very proud of my young, lovely friend A.M. Beautiful!

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    Heather says:

    Lol Lindsey, I'm glad you "confessed" it first now I don't feel so bad- Amy, I "blog stalk" you too…;). I have loved getting to know you through FB & Evy's Tree- I wept when I read your post about the loss of Pastor Haney & rejoiced with you on the move, new home & remodeling! I am a 32 year old Mother of 2 boys- ages 6 & 2. I am a pastors daughter from KY who met & married a TX boy & have lived here for 9 years. I love to sew, cook & decorate- Pinterest is my newest Internet addiction- lol. My husband, who works for the Federal Bureau of Prisons, has recently submitted his paperwork for a transfer (to several locations) California being one of them. We sold our first home the week of Thanksgiving & are now "waiting!". I have drawn strength & encouragement from your blogs, tweets & pictures- feels good to know you aren't the only person that is in the "holding room" and feel uncertain! Nice to meet you Amy, I'm Heather…;)

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    Tiffany says:

    Amy, we have so much in common! Only Im not that good at writing it all down. I think I have said it before…I love your transparency. You just say it like it is.

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    Sullivan's says:

    Amy – Love you SO much! Thank you for allowing me to continue to be a part of your life through your blogs! You are one great lady!

    Susan

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    mommyduncan84 says:

    Amy, I love reading your blogs ! I love your honesty, your huge heart for God and your Family. You are as real as they come and I love that about you. I also love that although we have only talked once in person, I feel like we are friends it's just to bad you are all the way in Santa Rosa and I am in Turlock :/ I would love to have play dates with our kids and get to know eachother more. But since that's not probably going to happen, keep up the blogs and maybe just maybe one day I will get some confidence to start my own :) Happy Holidays Friend :)

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    Amy says:

    You guys are all so sweet. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement and I am so glad you al visit here!! I appreciate you all and feel honored you would bother to keep up with our life. :)

    I'm going to try to respond to all of these comments…hopefully you all clicked on email notifications whenever anyone else responds! :)

    @Lindsay: YES…we were there at the same time for a year I think?? I can't remember! But I definitely consider you a friend!!! Will you please come over, pretty please so we can reconnect?? :)

    @Jenni: girl, I love you and your family. You are awesome! Thank you for being a faithful blog friend..even though I have been so HORRIBLE with blogging and haven't had once second to even glance at my reader and catch up :( xoxo

    Heather/AFD: You are amazing. I'm so glad we got to meet and I hope we can get together sometime soon. You must come see the new studio…make a trip to Santa Rosa!! :) xoxo

    @Kelley: I appreciate you so much! I feel very honored that you would take the time to catch up with my life…even more, I feel so honored that you would support me and my life. You are a beautiful lady and I pray for you and your family as you work for the Lord overseas. Thanks for all your encouragement, love, words of wisdom and support! xoxo

    @Heather from texas: It is so nice to "meet" you!!! I am honored you would follow my blog!!! CALIFORNIA??? You must let me know where you are moving! Would love to get together if it is close. Thank you for reading and I will pray for your family as you are in this time of transition! Moving is the worst! :( Big hugs to you!! xoxo

    @Tiffany: You are so sweet. Thank you for your kind words. I wish that every time we see each other wasn't so quick! :( Thank you for following along and I hope that in the future we can connect more and get to know each other. Big hugs!! xoxo

    @Sullivans: Oh Susan. I love you so much. Just typing your name almost brings tears to my eyes. You know my life so well and I appreciate that you still love me and Brandon for who we are. You have made a huge impact on our lives…especially Brandon. He loves you and your family so much. He keeps saying we need to get to AZ to see you all. Thank you for your kind words. Your words of support mean so much. Praying for your family today…this is a BIG day!! :)

    @MommyDucan: You are sooo sweet! I LOVED meeting you at Tim's wedding. It's always so nice when someone who reads my blog comes up and introduces themselves. Most of the time I feel like everyone knows my life but never tells me. I feel like I am repeating stories and feel SO DUMB when I find out later they have been a long time reader. ha. THANK YOU for introducing yourself! I enjoyed chatting with you and getting to know you and your family. You are such a sweetheart and so pure hearted. I loved it! I would love to have a play date…come see us!! ha :) No seriously, if any of you are ever in the Sonoma County area, please let me know. I would love to see you all!!

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    Tiffany Bracken: says:

    Amy,
    We have never met in real life, but I am so happy to have "met" you through this blog. To be honest, I am more of a blog reader than a commenter. (So sad. I know. And I wish people would comment on my blog!:)) However, I just really wanted to comment about you not traveling with your husband. I think the fact that you are putting your children first is AWESOME! As a missionary, people are always asking me what I am doing. And it can be awkward when I tell them that I am being a wife and mom first and missionary second. Don't get me wrong, I deeply care about the country that has become my second home. But, if in 20 years, my kids feel that the ministry stole their parents and childhood, then I will not be a success. So.. the point of this is: I know that not everyone will think like I do and most of them are quite vocal, but I just wanted to let you know that you are doing the right thing (at least in my eyes) and Congrats!

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    Michelle says:

    I’m Michelle from Texas! I found you through Kassie Dutton Pounds (we attend the same church), and I love reading your blog:)

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